You can keep it forever because..
Its over
Theres no more left to do
Ever since I laid my eyes on
You, beautiful creature
God given features
How could I have been so blessed
Even though I tried my best
To talk, to act, to be
The very best for he
No more acting, because Im the one hes seeing
The one he loves, the other half of his being
So I say to myself, there is no more
Its over, weve found eachother
My search is complete
I love you
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he is born limp / as for the reddened I hide it / you
crave change / I spit it / tomorrow is a need
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The pain.
The hate.
The tears.
This monster I fight,
It scratches and I fear
That I will not live to see through the next daylight.
I manage to break free
as it grabs for my right knee.
Through the halls I run
looking for my home free.
And as I wait for the monster
I am only to realize,
It is all inside of me.
written: sep. 22nd, 2002, 9:55pm
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Untitled
I was lost and confused
until I was introduced
to your heart, your soul
you changed my emptiness to full.
You said that in me, you truly beleived,
but I never could have conceived,
that it was true, coming from you.
Every day you help me to grow
in more ways than you could know.
I'm being sincere, please don't shed
a tear.
I just want to thank you,
for helping me realize
that with hard work and compromise
I can do it.
I'll get there someday,
just know,
that without you,
my smile could not glow.
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This is Me
What you see is not always what you get.
I smile, I laugh, Im joyful.
This is Me.
They say Im funny, Im outgoing, Im full of life.
This is me.
What you dont know is,
When I cry myself to sleep, look at myself with hate,
and want to die,
This is also Me.
She never comes out for anyone.
Smiling, but only for others.
Laughing outside, screaming on the inside.
Joyful, to make you proud.
Funny, to cover it up.
Outgoing, so youll notice me.
Full of life, and full of death.
This is Me.
What you see is not always what you get.
What do you see now?
Authors note: This poem was written at a low point in
my life, I'm not always like this.
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Beyond
Beyond the tears that stream my cheeks.
Beyond the look upon my face.
Look hard, look deep and you will find.
Don't judge, until you see, what there really is to
me.
Beyond my sorrow, hurt and pain.
Beyond what you may think I feel...
There is more, seek to find or leave in peace.
Beyond.
Written: August 13th, 2000
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Scared
No, Stop! You don't know what you're doing.
You do it because it's who you are, who you want to
be.
Stop, think about why you're doing this.
My heart is pounding, my breath is short.
Only becuase you feel that you have to hurt me to be
more powerful than I.
Stop, reconsider, you're scarring more than my appearance
But also my pride, confidence and heart.
Stop!
Written: September 1st, 2000
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Some Day
It may seem like we're far away
but I know that we're closer than ever.
In my heart I know we'll be, together forever.
Not now, but later you'll see.
Not now, but someday we'll be.
Written: December 17th, 2000
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Lonely Heart
Without you, I can't smile.
The days go by and I wonder,
Will I ever see your face, kiss your lips, embrace your
hug?
You tell me it will be a while,
but one day, you will come and free my lonely heart.
You are my angel, sent from God.
Delivered to me to revive my soul.
When I think of you, my heart soars,
and when I dream of you, my heart breaks.
To know you're so far away is something I can't understand.
For if we are meant to be, then why aren't you here
with me?
I count the years, months and days,
until you will come and free my lonely heart.
written: December 17th, 2000
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Beautiful Creations
I look around and see,
the things I will love for eternity.
They help me get by day by day,
and make me see my need to pray.
They're the reason I breathe,
they see the real me, underneath.
The day they die, is the day I'll try
to remember those beautiful creations.
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Knocked Down
There I lay, cold and afraid
Alone and bitter, no hope left
You rushed up so quick and full of joy
You gave me your hand and I gave you my heart.
Through my tears you saw my fears,
assured me that you wouldnt do what I knew you had to.
I told you of the time before, I ended up down and out.
You brought me back to where love lifts us.
It was fun while it lasted, and now,
without any word of goodbye, youre gone.
Forever I will remember you, and keep your (lvoe) as
it was.
You made me believe, in something I never really did,
myself.
Oblivious you must have been, aware you now are.
My heart will ache, it takes time to mend.
Take this as last words, a goodybye, a last chance?
I wasnt ready to give up, but youre too far for me to
grasp.
I was flying without wings, you were my wind.
Then you threw that stone and knocked me down.
Here I lie, cold and afraid.
Alone and bitter, no hope left.
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Bird of Stone
She is free, let her fly!
Her wings spread far, her feathers slice the sky.
The world below, is corrupt and bleeding.
She knows only this, her heart open for feeding.
The zombies gaze, heads tilted back, lives passing by.
Some admire, others loathe, this angel in the sky.
They throw hate, in hopes to hurt.
She ducks down, barely alert.
She can only wonder how come?
Where does all this hate come from?
They only reject to hide whats inside.
The pain and tears, alone, they cried.
She is still a bird.
Soaring, unheard.
Some will watch, others destroy.
She still flys high, strong and free.
They cant scar her.
This bird of stone, is all she can be
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